Yesterday I accidentally changed my desktop background with a picture from internet. It's purely due to mis-clicking. I browsed briefly to find a replacement, and without much fuss I chose the one with rainbow picture. Today, I went to Bogor, far outside the familiar places, to IPB Dermaga Campus. On the way back, among the hustle and bustle of angkots, motorcycles, cars, people, houses, trees, cables, ..we saw a very beautiful rainbow. Very close. Very big. I got so excited. It feels like it was following us for a while.
Back home, I just realized this coincidence - that just after I put rainbow in my desktop, I saw the real one. Nice feeling creeps in my soul. I know this might sound trivial, but I just love it. And I know it might not interrelated, but it made me thinking about my habbit. I tend to make a decision quickly, not much fuss. When it turns out to be a wrong choice, I usually shrug it off. I tend to let it go. But most of the time I feel that I have made a right decision. Even if others think it's not. I'm easy. I feel guided. I feel safe with my approach. This doesn't work for everybody, and with more people telling me to change, to be more prudent, I'm working to balance that. Not successful yet. Because I put more efforts in being more prudent - looking more alternatives, comparing things more, doing the scale thing, it dissapoints me much more when in the end I still make a wrong choice. It lowers my confidence. While when I just pick one quickly, it's like I already put into account the risk of being incorrect. And when it works, it makes me proud for being able to do a right action with no fuss. And for what I call intuition. Beginner luck.Well, above all, balance is the best. So im still working on it.
